冬至快乐 ♥

今天是冬至

吃了昨晚和妈咪一起搓的汤圆

其实我不喜欢吃汤圆

因为我觉得不好吃 =.=

但我还是吃了啦

今年有五个颜色的

最近真的很不顺

不顺到极点

希望吃过汤圆后

运气会好点吧 ~

漂亮吗 ?

被人说我做不到

我偏要做给你看

newspaper nail art =)

明天晚上会和妈咪和哥去一个讲座会

‘金钱能量学’

我哥说我太不会利用钱和存钱了

所以叫我去听

可是要我自己给钱 =.=

希望明天听了

人会改变点吧

2012要到了

我要公认20岁了

2开头了

应该要成熟点了

要学会靠自己

要学会大胆些

要会想点了

脾气也要改了

希望自己别再活得像个千金小姐了 

♥ Singapore Trip.

I use picture talk about my Singapore Trip =)

25/11

1st day : 虎豹别墅

when night we went to 1 法会

suddenly I force by mother 皈依 to 真佛宗 =.=

there are so hot and so boring !!

26/11

2nd day : 牛车水,佛庙

go there walk and see

and bought some souvenir

that day very no mood

keep raining and nobody talk with me

haizzz ~ feel sad

evening until night :

From Clarke Quay walk to 金沙酒店

we spend 2 hour walk to there =.=

12++am only reached auntie home @@

walk until leg so pain and shoes also spoil =_=

27/11

3rd day : Sentosa

that day hot until no mood

and for me there really so bored =.=

I love this merlion so much !! cute like hell !!

night : Orchard Road

there really so beautiful ~

many christmas tree

28/11

4rd day : Went dunno where shopping

just bought a few dress ~

when night

we early reached Changi Airport

because want take pic =D

The airport very nice and huge !!!

after that

11.35pm flight

but 12am only started fly

but we 12.35am reached LCCT

how fast the flight

LOL ~

2am only sleep

then early woke up on tuesday

need go study

busy life started again

 next blog only write about that =)

♥ 2011.2011

A special day again

♥ 20.11.2011

Yesterday also such a great day

that was me and my boy

had together

3 years and 10 months

46 months

1400 days

♥

this week really so busy but

next week I will fly go Singapore =D

this few day really busy until dunno how to describe it

since tuesday non-stop rush my assignment

1st time feel doing a assignment will so tired =X

and I still skip class 

keep hide inside CITC do assignment for 6 hour non-stop @@

until friday still rushing my assignment

but finally I had done =D

due to next week I need fly go Singapore since thursday

thursday got test and friday got gym test

so I need replace it on monday and tuesday

but

monday got another test too

tuesday need group presentation too

mean that

this 2 day I really will busy until crazy T_T

hate this feeling

really so tired

keep can't sleep well

until now I still not yet prepare anything yet

really feel so lazy

hope that I really could so lucky

get something for nothing =D

after all those busy thing

I could go Singapore relax

but I really will miss my dearest deep deep much =(

after relax

I need prepare for my final exam d

now edi is week 10

4 more weeks

final exam is coming

wish me good luck =)

♥ 11.11.11

Oops

Today is

11.11.11

but nothing special also

just all the number same only mah =X

early morning went to college for gym

today just have a test

do nothing there

then just straight back home

until now still in home

never go out after that

this is my 11.11.11

=_=

after gym =)

My False.

对

我错了

我知道自己做错了

我只是好奇

上一秒还很开心的讨论属于我们之间的秘密

下一秒就因为我做错了一件很严重的事

我就被你所说的每一句话

给伤得很重

‘我到底得罪了你什么’

呵呵

听了这句后

我还真‘开心’呀

为什么最后我会用钥匙割自己 ?

那是因为

你不停的责备

但我却不知该做些什么来补救

当时心想

它花了

你很心痛

那么若是我花了呢 ?

对

我不知道你的痛

但同样的你也不知道我的痛

我以为只有你

可以让我说出一切事情

结果原来我还是错的

我还是一个人

由始至终

我都是一个人

这世上

没有任何一样东西是永远的

以为 ?

那真的只是以为

别当真了

这几天

谷底般的悲观

何时才能乐观回 ?

得到了学业

却失去了人缘

God Bless ?

Thursday have 2 test

2 hard test

1 of the test is the subject that I most hate

Account

I just study a bit only

when thursday

I asked my classmate teach me account

they just teach me 1 thing only

then didn't teach me anything more

nevermind

because they also need study

before the test

I keep pray

hope the teacher will give me the question that I know

when I get the question paper

I really get shock

WOW

I really get the question that I know how to do

feel so happy because I not need fail this subject =D

Thanks the GOD blessed me ^_^

nothing to write anymore

nothing can say

hmmmm ~

just feel sad again

是我太傻

一个星期里发生了很多事

我又要慢慢'伸'了

星期一至三

在痛苦的胃痛之下度过

从来没得过那么痛苦的病

星期二晚上到星期三早上都睡不着

一躺下

胸口就好像被石头压着似的

加上背是酸到一个不行

妈咪还为了要照顾我

不做生意

超感动的 T^T

忘了哪一天

被班上的某个同学说我长得像

要给白雪公主吃毒苹果的巫婆

当下觉得超级HURT

傻眼了

但也没话好说 ='(

星期四

有个小考

因为前几天一直胃痛的关系

都没什么读到书

我还特地翘了一堂我最讨厌的课

独自一人到图书馆读书
结果我还是答得很好 =)

星期五

既开心又伤心的一天

早上去gym过得很开心

因为今天的很好玩

过后又有亲爱的来载我

回家冲个凉后去1u

过后跟亲爱的看了部戏

再吃个晚餐就回家了

但是能和他在一起

我就心满意足了

只要他别再骂我 >_<

最近穷得可怜呀

很多东西都很想买

惟有积极快快开始做生意咯

不然真的穷到不知道要如何形容啊 T^T

是我太傻

傻得无药可救

明明说过对你们好

就等于在伤害着自己

但我却还是对你们好

到头来，伤得还是我自己

Date.

Weee ~

finally I had a happy day =D

wednesday early morning hang out with my dearest 

we miss the MC breakfast

long time no eat =(

wait next week only eat bah

miss the breakfast then we ate MC lunch =D

actually I want happy meal but no dare buy xD

next time 1st bah

I want that smurfs toy

I want get Clumsy

after that movie time : The Smurfs ♥

ahhhhhhh

really so cute

but the whole movie seems like I more interested on

Gargamel & Azrael

hahahaha ~ 

they were too funny in this movie

who haven't watch must go watch

during night

second round with my friend and dearest

watch Colombiana

not bad movie =)

when reached home already around 12am

feel happy

1st time whole day hang out with my dearest ♥

Miss he >_<

Difference

Talk about my 1st experience first

last saturday is the 1st time I go super market be a promoter

only 1 day

because I just replace my neighbour only

after this time I will never ever do this kind of job anymore

bored like hell and tired like hell

until now my hand still so pain

why my leg no pain ?

due to I got keep 拉筋

but hand dunno how to do it ><

make a friend at there

she quite leng lui =)

okay

back to the title

morning wake up then keep on get hurt

ask someone some question

give her suggestion

but she said the idea was so bored d

my heart told myself : I never get that before

but they already said that so bored

how hurt am I ?

today and tmr mother off day

still think she will bring me go genting today

but actually not

she want me alone stay at home

how sad ?!!!

open pc

login to the facebook that I selling clothes

didn't have any ORDER !!!!

bull shit

already 1 week

1 order also don't have

am I need ready to close this 'shop' ?

*SIGH*

holiday ?

everyone go out play

me ?

at home

do what ?

sleep,copy paste the stupid clothes,eat,watch tv,sleep

all plan that I plan before sem break

all disappear

how hurt am I ?

how sad am I ?

and 1 more thing

do you all feel something was just like nothing skip already ?

your all sure wont feel it

nobody will care about this

not not

is only FOR ME

your all only will wont care about it

everyone has just only me don't have

how special am I ?

=')

Holiday =D

I had started my 1st sem break since yesterday =D

so happy finally sem break

but keep stay at home sleep really so boring and

3 weeks sem break too long for me T_T

father also keep on scold me

due to I keep sleep until so late only wake up ><

feel want to find a part time job

but I never do this before

feel scare T_T

19 years old d

I just had work 1 time only

no dare go ask where got part time job ><

this few day planing be a agent

but but but

so confuse =_=

found a wrong shop

lazy people how do business ?

sigh =(

god bless me found a part time job then I can get MONEY !!!!

$o$

=]

=]

tomorrow is my birthday

this is the 1st time

I don't have any feeling

1st time I don't expect my birthday at all

why ?

I don't know also

just feel like nothing

just a normal day

every year my birthday I told myself

don't care too much about my birthday

just a normal day

but this year

I was auto din't care about my birthday

What to say ?

5 minutes more is my birthday

Happy Birthday To Myself ♥

Upset.

The feeling just like get hurt from the important person

I like you

but you say regret to be with me

I miss you

but you say you don't even care

you just love the new 1

ya

I cried

why do I cried ?

however sometimes I said don't care about it

in fact

I really care about it damn much

so

should I change your mind ?

should I try my best make your mind turn to

feel glad have me in your life ?

( I never say this is talking about lover )

Moody.

What a moody week

A lot of things happened this few days

tuesday night

argue with my dearest

almost break up

but luckily we still could together back

we broke up half hour ? >_<

that day 4am only fall in sleep

keep on cry and cry and cry

wednesday

woke up went to college

during the way to college

i was had sick

keep on auto smile in the bus =X

because i feel me and my dearest

just only start together

but when i reached college

during the accounting class

i keep on feel want to cry

started still can understand what the tutor teaching

but after discus about those question

I don't even know what he talking about anymore

feel upset

when get back the account paper

more sad ='(

i'm right

i'm the lowest mark in the class

after that was english class

i regret to help ppl

i'm not the best student and i'm not clever at all

why i still go help them ?

haiz

make myself 'fish' only

gave them the wrong answer still thought myself so clever

that time i really hope have a hole can let me hide T^T

yesterday was the most happy day

because met my dearest

2 weeks din't meet up already

miss he so much ❤

movie time

'Rise Of The Planet Of  The Apes'

this movie really so nice !!!!

Apes really so clever

human were fool

at the last it say : Caesar is home

feel touch ><

I cant accept this new lens

too big for me @@

this just 14.5mm

i wondering how those ppl wear until

16-17.5mm

and now

is time to study

if i dun start from now

i really wait die =_=

God bless me please ~~

Oops I'm back again =)

today and tmr is

ah wen & chi xiang birthday

but last sunday we were celebrate with them

a joyful celebration =D

Happy Birthday To Ah wen & Chi Xiang =)

yesterday get my account marks

started I feel nothing to my marks because myself feel that was still okay

however my tutor told me it's not very good result

after I heard all my classmate told me their marks

I feel hurt and unhappy

and realized maybe I'm the lowest marks in the class =(

most hurt was I have account basic and some of them didn't have any account basic

also can higher than me

 I feel so scare

scare I will resit this paper on next sem

more scare is only me will resit this paper in my class T_T

I really hate account ='(

tmr dating cancel

really feel upset right now ='(

I cried again

due to I see my old blog again

seen once cried once

haiz

I really can't forget what we does before

I really can't forget how crazy we were

I really can't forget how stupid we were

I really can't forget how funny we were

I really can't imagine the life if that time without your all

that time we have how many person in a group
now we got how many person in per group ?

maybe I'm the only person keep missing the time we been together

maybe I'm the only person will cry when think back that time

however I know that the time won't be back

I'm just

missing the time when we together happily ='(
I'm just
missing our friedship

Hai !!

HAI !!!

finally I'm back

almost 1 month did not update my blog

I'm too lazy

haha ~

since I start my college life almost 2 month

I felt that I really so lazy =_=

lazy to do all homework

whatever la =X

keep dating with my dearest =D
and keep starbucks =_=
we too rich  ? lols

Chocolate cream chip

Java chip

Last friday went pasar malam with my dearest
felt so happy =D
Love he so much >_<

On friday

I cut my hair

ahhh ~

so regret

T_T

my hair become so short now

however that is myself want cut 1

but I don't know will short like that ='(

I just hope my hair don't too messy only >_<

after hair cut

movie with my dearest

we watch Kungfu Panda 2

It's a funny movie

but in the cinema I cry =X

because I really cant accept that my hair short like

2 years ago geh me T_T

when saturday

I dyed my hair

Black Colour

=)

I'm look like kids now

many people thought that I'm still during secondary school

I told them I'm 19 years old d

they really get a big shock

and started said bull shit reason

to explain why they said I'm still during secondary school

speechless =_=

Back to my college life

I'm damn fucking lazy do those tutorial question

especially that QS

bull shit thing =_=

I need to add more oil on study d =)

520 1314 ♥

Today is a special

20 Of May

in short form

520

means 我爱你

A sweet day =D

On this sweet day

I dating with my dearest

and finally I watched triple F

which mean

Fast & Furious Five

saw many people say that is a awesome movie

but I feel just they rob those money that part awesome only =X

Oh ya

and our ticket is

520 1314 ♥

my dearest chooses it

got abit touch =)

I LOVE YOU !!! ♥

很没心情啊 T_T

明明上厕所时还一直顾着那钱

但是

还是不见了

连怎样不见都不懂 T_T

虽然说不是很多钱

但是我很心痛

那是我妈给我的 =(

我不敢给她知道 =(

上课第3个星期了

还是很陌生

总是努力

但还是没用

唉 ~~~

='(

 是因为我不多话 ?

还是我样子太凶 ?

Happy 3 years and 4 month anniversary for Us ♥

总觉得最近的你对我越来越冷淡

渐渐的你告诉我你喜欢上 X 了

原来最近的冷淡就是因为你喜欢上她

我最怕的事情就这样发生了

你给我看你给她的信息

你对她的告白

我记得你写
我想追求你

很少写华语的你

竟然写了华语信息给她

我想哭

但是我忍住了眼泪

在墙上也是写满着你对她的告白

虽然她有了男朋友

但你还是想追求她

看着那幅墙

眼泪流不出

只感觉到心里的痛

无法形容的痛

渐渐的

眼泪从眼里

滑到了另外一个眼睛

心很痛

无法想象我们3年多的感情

就这样的结束

这才发现

我不能失去你

挣开眼睛

发现

这原来只是个梦

但是这梦实在是太逼真了

逼真得我的心还是很痛

眼泪原来也流了很久

但是我的心情还是停留在那梦里

一直哭

哭个不停

渐渐变得清醒了

但还是很怕这梦会成真

就一直抱着 koko 继续的哭

很想打电话给你

但是我知道

我打给你

你还是会像一只猪似的睡

然而我也不知道该怎么面对你

因为昨晚我等你

等了一个晚上

结果你的答案是什么 ?

你自己知道

早上你却若无其事的

给了我封信息

我并不会回你

因为你根本不知道

你昨晚有多伤我的心

我很讨厌你那借口

我很忙嘛

忙大完啊 ????

忙就可以不用关心我了 ?

忙就可以把我丢在一边 ?
半句慰问都没有
我到底是不是那个你爱的女朋友呢 ?

我为什么会叫你不要继续做下去了 ?

原因很简单

那就是 我希望你能有多点时间陪伴我

然后再找一份时间没那么长的工作

算吧

我说什么都没用

我投诉了那么多次都没用

也不知道是不是你不再像以前那样珍惜我了

昨晚你说要说的东西都没说到

一天拖一天

100年后都讲不完啦

我讨厌冷淡

我喜欢燃烧不完的热情

Yes

Today is TARC orientation day

And

I attended =D

feel regret attended

due to

there are really damnnnnnnnn boring

today so lucky

I met Joeyee

lucky got her

I not need line up also can get the T-shirt & the file xD

feel myself so jin ka

other people line up under the damn hot weather

I goyang kaki at there xD

this year T-shirt nice xia

but I hate orange =_=

and the most glad thing is

this year can get a 4GB pendrive for free =DD

my dearest say that is : jiao pendrive

hahahahahaha ~

sure I know that xD

but I also need it

because my own pendrive keep let my friend borrow go

long long time only will come back on my hand

macam that pendrive not mine =_=

feel dun wan go college start from tomorrow until next week

but

I scare >_<

however I scare I also decide wont go on thursday & friday

I need know the time table as soon as possible laaaaaaaaaaa ~~~

Start from today I'm Tarcian ^_-

=D

yahooooooooooooooo

finally I get my english result

B

no - no + also

ngam ngam hou can study

^_^

so happy

because

my class got 20 people

just 9 people can get high than B- only

Am I lucky ? =)

but I crazy soon

the college wont send the offer letter to me

need myself go college and get it

wtf !!!

next tuesday start skul already

and next monday is holiday also

=.=

really damn

now just can

见一步走一步咯

after start study

dunno want how meet my dearest >_<

hope the time table suitable me

hate my eyebrow so much now

>_<

long time din update blog

due to I'm too lazy xD

19/4

tuesday

dearest birthday

I wont forget how 'fish' am I that night

='(

too bad luck

anyway

Happy Birthday To You Albin Yap =]

  

wednesday & thursday skip

at home sleep

friday

mean today

WOW

english paper today

I never feel stress like that before

due to

if the result is B

then I can continue study

if I cant get it

I need go back work

those question actually quite easy

just I was too nervous

make many mistakes T_T
don't know can get more than 65 marks or not

haizzzzz

next week will know the result

hope that

I can get the great result !!!!

Am I wrong ?

我错了吗 ?

选择重新回去读书是正确的吗 ?

现在读书

只会被别人取笑说我浪费了一年的时间

和之前学美容的金钱

你们觉得这是我想要的吗 ?

我的心也很痛

一直这样浪费妈咪的钱

酱事实学了美容才发现我真的完全不适合这行

原本以为可以找到一个朋友是差不多的

但是偏偏别人并不打算认识我

其实当时的我很伤心

现在读的英语班

说实在话

我根本就是人在班里

心却不知去了哪里

没办法

因为我真的听不懂老师在说什么

心想如果以后我真正开始上课时

我能够确保我真的能听得懂吗 ?

其实我很后悔现在才读回书

因为我什么都忘了

就连写一篇作文

我都花了非常长的时间才写完

而且都是乱写 =(

原因是我脑里什么idea都没有

究竟

现在读回书

是对还是错呢 ?

呵呵 ~

没人会和我研究这问题

最近的我

开始回到

以前那非常自卑的我了

哈哈哈

当我拍到很美的照片时

很开心

但是

却完全和我真人一点都不像

拍到不美的照片时

不喜欢

因为那是我真正的样子

所以

别被我的照片骗了哦

=')

 

Sad

Just now saw someone blog

just saw something

then I started feel want cry

so sad

I no choice know someone already

I just hope can not alone

='(

算吧

一切已成定局

time to do homework again =(

.

Finally I come write blog

I know got some people waiting come see my blog xD

Monday

1st time go college study

scare like hell

don't know who say need early 2 hour go out

if not will late

shit you =.=

me 8am go out

9am reach college

1 ppl walk here walk there find the classroom

no ppl want talk with me

maybe I too ugly already

scared ppl >_<

homework : grammar

don't know do at all ='(

Tuesday

my parents fetch me go college

finally I know a new friend

A pretty girl from Muar =)

change classroom

go hall

started feel so happy because got air-cond

after 1 hour feel too cold

beh tahan

teacher told us : tomorrow remember bring jacket come

haha ~

after school back home change clothes

then hang out with my dearest ♥

Look at this pic

then look at that pic on right hand side

two different people xD

Lunch : Le Classic

Dinner : Steamboat

1st time steamboat with he =)

Finish dinner back home

do homework

essay

1 and half year no write already

simply write >_<

write until 2am only go sleep ='(

Wednesday

rainy day

I thought will traffic jam

but I also 8.30am only go wait bus

let you guess what time I reach college ?

9.10am =.=

alone stay outside hall wait until 9.45am only go in ='(

after school back home

prepare go learn drive again

this time I do it well xD

din get scold

but a few times those car want come bang me I don't know at all

lucky the uncle break

>_<

that time I keep think

next time when I get licence sure keep give ppl bang =.=

choi ~~~~

hahaha ~

time to sleep already

tomorrow don't know want what time go wait bus already

=_=